Tired of broken hearts....

Last night when i laid down

a tiny drop flowed through my cheek...

so tiny that i hardly felt...

i brushed it with my finger

and saw my finger completely wet....

wondered how such a tiny drop could carry such huge volumes...

thats when a thought sparked my mind....

when a three worded phrase(i love u) that you uttered...

could bind my soul with yours....

why cant an other three worded phrase(i hate u)...

rip my soul apart....

only today i came to know....

when souls break...they shed tears...not blood!!

never imagined that a tear could be painful than blood....

for bloods come from injury and tears from betrayal...

then...my thought suddenly stopped.....

now wondered if it was all a dream.....

the next second i was sure it was not a dream....because....

had it been a dream....you would have wiped that tear....

perhaps every true heart that loves, deserves a lesson....

well if you ever thought....

even my heart deserves a lesson....

say it to my mind....

I AM TIRED OF BROKEN HEARTS...!!

those two words...

When we were together...i did not have even one thought...

that we ...like all others will utter those two words of hatred...

i would say ... those are the words that have ripped many hearts...

maybe a million more than what a heart surgeon would have in his lifetime...

only because of this...i suppose...its called ..."BREAK UP"....

when we were together....

my mobile "inbox" was my heaven...

my message tone was all i my ears yearned to hear...

your cell number was all i remembered....

but ... now...i am able to see more than what i have seen all these years...

my thoughts are clear...

my mind feels freedom...

my approaches have become cautious...

i have learned to look...out of my mobile "inbox"

i no more expect those "message tones"

although your words ripped my heart...

it has spared my intelligence....

so now i have learned new things.....

for i am neither an optimist nor a pessimist...

now....all that i know is ....

NEW BEGINNINGS ARE MUCH BETTER THAN BEGINNINGS...

you almost stopped my ticking time..!!

People say "time and tide waits for nobody"

time cannot be changed...

i still ponder over this old saying

i have been believing that this is true from my childhood...

but...suddenly now...i feel its not...because...

After the moment my eyes had a first gaze of you....

every second seems to be an hour...

every heart beat seems to be a life...

every word seems like a book...

yet....i search for a perfect word , a perfect hour and a perfect beat ...

to express my thought about you...!!

for people who wants an extended time...can you be the solution??

i fear you will be a syndrome rather than a solution...

for your magnetism creates an illusion...!!

i live on a borrowed time....life almost impure...

doctors are searching for a medicine..without knowing you are the cure...

creations of god so amazing...

and you are one, truly, worth gazing...!!

a poem for my love....!!

You were meant to be my destiny

for you were sent to me

in 1989, a day in December

a day i will always remember...

one of a kind we are..apart from the rest...

i may be biased...still i would say we are the best...

i picture you in my mind each day...

just a thought of you takes me away...

we have passed some tests over the years...

have argued, teased and cried in tears...

getting married to you is the best part of my life..

and we will go through eternity as husband and wife...

i have said so much and still can't say "its enough"

because ...living without you is just "too tough..."..!!

you were...you are...and you will ...always be the "QUEEN OF MY HEART!!"

lightning of love...

this is probably one of the shortest scribbling of mine...

yet close to my heart....

love happens....when you see someone from the opposite sex and...

the moment your eyes cross....your heart will say....

"if she says once, i would listen twice.."....

breakups happen...when the same heart says..

"if she says many, i would listen none.."......

when taking rights and giving rights happens smoothly in a "constitution" with million people

why cant it be in "love" too....after all ..it involves only 2 people not a million!!

Here i go again...

I loved it when you loved my heart

and now...i love it when you break it hard..

never ever thought...a broken heart...will create a broken mind...

for..if it was not true...will i be sitting here thinking of you...

a fool again....here i go again....

I don't really care, because my memory is broken...

but i care...because they still retain.....

those three golden words you uttered a million times...

my heart can always forgive...but my mind resists to forget..

i know i will hear no such words from you here after...

yet i hold my memories...

a fool again...here i go again....

you said "we will be friends"...

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i would say...its for the hopeless optimists...who juggle between friendship and love..

i wandered in rain...i wandered in my brain...

to catch that last bright day i had with you...

deep in my memory it lies, yet...it shines like a distant star....

my mind knows a trip to a star is never possible...

that too, a second trip...oh god..its just impossible..

for its been long since my heart stopped listening to my mind...

this crazy heart....still searching for your warmth...

here i go again...a fool again....

i shed tears...not for this bitter thing between us...

but for the MANY WAYS I WAS A FOOL TO YOU..!!

The ultimate search

I wandered all through the seas

oh yeah....the rivers and the ponds too..

to find something special...

something like i haven't seen all these 20 years of mine..

i searched, filtered every rock, every drop

that i ever hopped in my search...

even the depths of oceans and the muds in the pond were not spared..

but never i succeeded in finding the item of my quest...

i even tried the shops..

every little one that my eyeballs came across...

the jewel shops too..

i asked people...whoever i met throughout this long journey of mine..

"have you seen it??"...

to my vain...no matter how much ever i try..

to get this rare piece...

the answer is all the same ..."no we've not seen it"...

yet... only my mind gave up...not my heart...

now after all these years of gruesome search...

i finally stopped searching...

not because i'm tired...but because i got what i was looking for....

it doesn't shine like a diamond...neither it glitters like gold...

for it was created by the simplest things of nature called "the water"...

MY PERFECT PEARL..Is YOU...

our departed ways

The winds blow wide and far over me

and when they do so, they whisper your name..

i know you are close, not because of my instincts its because of the winds..

i am not sure from which direction they blew...

for i knew they did.. only when i heard your name...

i follow their whispers like an enchanted soul..

without even a thought where they are taking me..

i know it leads me to a good life, not because of the winds..

this time its because of my instincts...

for i know these winds are far better than the one "THAT BLEW YOU AWAY FROM ME!!"